Thursday, October 01, 2009

Update (for Hallie)

I am sorry to have left that last post up, unupdated, for so long. You see, less than 24 hours after uploading my resume, they called me and wanted an interview.

They hadn't even received my letters of recommendation or transcripts yet.

I was excited, and was very hopeful about the interview. I had been offered a position there years ago, and turned them down to go to Lincoln (that was a mistake, it turns out).

Tuesday morning I put on my best interview outfit (including the pearl necklace and earrings I received as a wedding gift), and off I went.

I had a good interview - I made them laugh a couple of times, I answered articulately, and even re-connected with a fellow grad student I hadn't seen in a few years. The principal thanked me for coming and said she'd let me know either way within a couple of days.

That afternoon I received a phone call. The caller ID showed it to be the principal. Heart pounding with excitement, I answered the phone.

"Yes, Heather? I just wanted to call you and let you know that we offered the position to another candidate, and he accepted. Thank you for applying and have a nice day."

I mumbled some kind of platitude and hung up, sort of stunned. I really thought I'd be offered the position. To say I was bummed was putting it mildly. Working in Newport would have been the final piece in the puzzle of Bear and I moving to Bangor next summer. I knew I'd have to return to my current school for at least the remainder of the school year, and the thought depressed me.

I know now more than an ever how much I do not want to be here. I don't think I realized how much until I had the possibility of something more. Something better.

I am going to keep searching and keep trying, but this still stings a bit.


Anonymous said...

I'm so sorry, that does sting. I hate those kind of calls. However, you took a risk by applying in the first place and now you have the confidence to keep looking. I know something will come up.

It is so hard to go to a job when you are unhappy. I'm sending lots of positive vibes your way that something better will be coming up soon. You deserve better.

In the mean time, keep focusing on all the good stuff in your life, like Bear and all that cuddle time. Not to mention the beauty of the fall.

Fox In Detox said...

Sorry Heather... I know how much you want to be rid of that job, but not getting this one just means it wasn't the right fit for you.

You WILL find the right one. Keep your chin up, your eyes open, and a smile on your face. It's out there...

Alice said...

Obviously, I am catching up after a long blog absence. I hope that things are better...and I know this doesn't help now, but everything really does have a way of working out in the end...there is something better around the corner for you. I just know it!

Sue Flaska said...

I am not going to say the traditional, it wasn't meant to be stuff because I never like hearing that. What I am going to say is that it sucks, and I am sorry you are having to go through all of that bullshit.