Monday, May 15, 2006

Over and Over Again

So it seems to me that the more things change, the more they stay the same. I'm nearing the end of my second year at my job, and I've been informed that my contract is not being renewed. This is the second time in three years. I'm trying very hard not to feel ashamed, to not feel as though I am a bad person (or worse, a bad teacher). It's difficult, but I'm managing. At least this time I saw it coming, knew that I was on the chopping block. I don't know, maybe that's worse, knowing you weren't going to be kept on and being unable to do anything about it.

With the notable exception of my career, life is actually pretty good right now. Bear and I are finalizing plans to take a ten day trip to California this August. His niece is getting married, and while we are there for it, we are going to do the tourist thing and go to the San Diego Zoo and Sea World and some other neat things. I should be visiting my brother in Arizona this summer, too.
Further, my grad class is all lined up for the summer - six credits of writing goodness, and my curent district has to pay for it. Yeay! I still have two incompletes to deal with, but no worries there. I am realy hoping that this grad class is all I'm hoping it will be.
Lastly, Bear is more wonderful than ever. He's been so supportive through all that the last few weeks have brought. He's truly been the reason I'm not in a deep well of self-pity right now. He's so good about getting me to see the good out of every bad situation, to think that it really might just be alright. If I didn't have him, I don't know what I'd do.
Going forward from here, I'm going to try to work out my time with as much professionalism as possible. I'm going to look forward to summer, do what I have to do at school, and concentrate on creating forward momentum.

What else can I do?