Saturday, January 15, 2011

Grrr.

So my friend Alice over at Wandering Wonderland says I'm inspirational. That my efforts to lose weight and get healthy inspire her. Last time I lost 40 pounds, I agreed with her. I could see how I was an inspiration (and I was happy to help - she did AWESOME!). I had worked hard, and the changes were obvious. I looked *good*!

This time? Not so much.

That's not to say I'm not busting my ass. I am! I'm riding my Sinister Stationary Bike of Doom for at least 500 calories a day (last night was 550!). I'm drinking between 5 and 8 glasses of water a day, not counting what I have in my coffee and tea. I'm participating in Sparkpeople's 28 Day Bootcamp Challenge, which means I do one ten-minute strength training workout every day. I'm stretching every time I exercise for decreased pain and increased flexibility. I'm tracking everything I eat and drink, even when I go out to eat (last time I cut to 1,275 calories, this time I'm trying to stay under 1,400). I've been doing everything RIGHT for three weeks now ...

... and I've lost 2 pounds. TWO.

That's ridiculous. I don't care if I am adding muscle, I don't care if some of that weight is water, I don't care if my body is in shock. I WANT THIS FUCKING WEIGHT GONE. I'm so so so so frustrated. My darling husband is exercising/dieting too, and in the first week he lost 7.6 pounds!! Yes, I know he has more to lose, yes I know it's easier for men - it's Just. Not. Fair.

Out of desperation this morning I took my measurements. I'm hoping (at this point somewhat dispiritedly) that if I'm not losing pounds, I *am* losing inches. I've posted them below for the entire world to see to keep me motivated to keep working. Because the scale? Not helping at all.

Calves: 16"
Thighs: 25" (this is what my WAIST should be, not one of my THIGHS)
Hips: 42"
Waist: 36"
Arms: 13"

How are you doing" Fox? Alice?

3 comments:

loribird said...

Breathe, girl, breathe... rant some more if it helps, and... keep it up! You ARE inspirational, and (cheesy as it sounds, yes you can smack me) I'm sure it's not nearly as bad as you think. And I love you.

I haven't weighed myself in over a year. In fact, I have no idea what I weigh because the last time I looked at a scale while I was standing on it I nearly fell off from shock; yet the mirror was telling me I look alright. I decided to stick with the mirror.

I know I could be in better shape too. This morning I went to yoga class and got winded! So I'll (unofficially) join ya on this one.
For the record, (and there are recent photos of me on Ravelry etc.) my hips are 41", my waist is 29", my thighs are 23.5" and I don't have the patience to wrastle with the tape measure to do my arms properly but I know I can still split firewood so I'm calling it muscle ;)

Ok, I'm done hijacking your blog now ♥

Fox In Detox said...

I am feeling exactly where you are. I'm doing the same things you're doing, and also not losing as fast as I think I should. I do know, however, that it will kick in at some point. Hang in there girl... keep doing what you're doing and you will be rewarded...promise.

Alice said...

I'm where you are. Except - you've been much better than me!! I keep drinking wine and saying I'm going to start tomorrow....

Anyway, I was supposed to go to WW on Saturday - long story (of course) - I didn't get to go for my first weigh-in - but I am officially dieting. Today.

Ugh! I HATE it. HATE, HATE HAAAAAAAAAAAAATTTTTTTTTTTTTTEEEEEEE it!

I'm tracking everything I'm eating and already 32 oz of water into the day. But this is the part that sucks. The suffering without seeing results. But atleast you're at 2 lbs!! Just 3 more and that will be 5 lbs....and before you know it 10 lbs and that's when you're going to see a huge difference.

Hang in there girlfriend. You've done this before and you can do it again. And I wouldn't be surprised if in the next week or two you see a big jump in your weight loss.

Besides, I need you to keep me sane b/c I swear all my coworker keep walking by my office looking at me funny just b/c I'm knawing on my desk.